PQ 9.6 — Are decisions about my actions or access to my body being made without my involvement or consent?

a cosplay of Ganon from the legend of Zelda. Ganon has a blackened face, a bright red hair, is wearing armor of navy and gold, and is holding out 2 crossed (thick) swords in front of them
Image by Kai / CC BY

PQ 9.6 — Are decisions about my actions or access to my body being made without my involvement or consent?

*

Submitting to Ganon

My earliest fantasies were all about pleasing someone else.

It didn’t matter so much who they were. They were nebulous, dark, selfish. Like the shadowy figure of Ganon on the Zelda 2 Game Over screen.  » Read more

Continue Reading

Baby’s First Bondage

My first experience with bondage was far from submissive. I was, in fact, quite bossy about the whole affair.

“Strap me down,” I told my girlfriend.

“You sure?” she asked.

After all, it was a king-sized bed, and what height I do have is in my torso. The wrist and ankle cuffs might well have been in the four corners of the country.  » Read more

Continue Reading

Notes towards “Diary of a Love Slave”

12/23/13

Nothing feels better than letting go, and when I say letting go, I mean completely letting go, letting responsibility bleed from you as effortlessly as losing consciousness when your head hits the pillow. Until I met him, I’d had little opportunity to do that for any length of time.

Going limp requires a high level of security and complete trust in the person holding the reins.  » Read more

Continue Reading

Saving the World, One Knot at a Time

“The only hope for peace is to teach people who are full of pep and unbound force to enjoy being bound… Only when the control of self by others is more pleasant than the unbound assertion of self in human relationships can we hope for a stable, peaceful human society… Giving to others, being controlled by them,  » Read more

Continue Reading

this sub’s life

J: Pageling, I have something for you.
Me: (through the door) I’m naked.
J: It’s fine. I’m naked, too.
Me: Okay. (opens door)

I love my life.

*

“I couldn’t do 24/7. It’d just be too much.”

“Sadomasochism makes sense, but I can’t really get into Domination and submission.  » Read more

Continue Reading

Portion Control

“A lot of people run a race to see who is fastest. I run to see who has the most guts, who can punish himself into exhausting pace, and then at the end, punish himself even more.”

Steve Prefontaine

*

apophenia : the experience of seeing meaningful patterns or connections in random or meaningless data.  » Read more

Continue Reading