Ghost of a Chance

In the past, I’ve joked that my sexual orientation is “brilliant and haunted.”

All joking aside, there’s a lot of truth there. Granted, my body has to be attracted to their body. I have zero control over who I am and am not physically attracted to, and the best I’ve been able to manage on that front is to notice patterns.  » Read more

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Selfishness and the Chupacabra

It’s been a year since Skyspook and I reopened our relationship.

And what am I learning, looking back on the past year?

I find more than anything that I’ve grown incredibly selfish.

It’s not that I’m selfish with my love… I love freely, finding myself charmed by and attracted to any number of individuals.  » Read more

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Girl Training

From “Orientation” – originally written 1/30/2011:

Having transitioned from a monogamous marriage almost 2 years ago into a polyamorous one, I’ve been close to a lot more self-identifying bisexual women than I ever had before (really, most of the women I’ve had sex with up until recently considered themselves straight) and had many more female friends who identify as bisexual.  » Read more

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In Plain Sight

In the process of talking to my friend Fluffy about old traumas this evening, it become absolutely clear: much is made of the leering, frothing disgusting rapist, ready and waiting in the shadows to defile.

But…

Looking back, my rapist was incredibly normal — even a bit tedious.

He was a Republican.  » Read more

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Hypervigilance

I am lying in the back of an ambulance staring out the back window. Every time I feel our vehicle lurch to a stop, I stare intently at the cars behind us, willing them to stop. “Don’t hit us,” I think. It’s such an intense desire that I’m not sure if I’m saying it aloud or not.  » Read more

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A Chameleon is Always a Lizard

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Costumes: “…general usage has gradually been replaced by the terms ‘dress’, ‘attire’ or ‘wear’ and usage of ‘costume’ has become more limited to unusual or out-of-date clothing and to attire intended to evoke a change in identity, such as theatrical, Halloween, and mascot costumes.”

It’s that time of year again when I ponder my inclination to arrive at Halloween parties dressed as myself,  » Read more

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