Clarity

Maybe the secret, after all, is that it’s a great deal more simple than I had believed: His hand on my back, our bodies intertwined in the bed, the familiar smell of his skin, and how his smile effortlessly warms me.

I am heady and high on love for him.

No sin to enjoy that.  » Read more

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Round Two

“Can we go, or are you going to pout all night?” His tone was sharp, and I cringed away from him.

“Am I not allowed to feel bad?” I replied, feeling something shrivel up inside of me.

“If you’re going to pout, you’ll have to stay home,” he restated.

I wasn’t aware that I was pouting.  » Read more

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Homecoming – PXS 2013 #2

It didn’t take long for me to realize that I was coming home.

I handed the slave working the registration table my license. As she skimmed her list, ticking my name off, she said, “I haven’t seen you in a while. You haven’t even written.”

My breath caught in my throat.  » Read more

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Back in the vanilla world again – PXS 2013 #1

I spent the weekend at Power eXchange Summit (PXS) in Columbus. PXS is a special event. More than anything, it is about talking, exploring, socializing. I think of it as a kinky couples’ retreat, even though there are a number of polyamorous connections involved and leather families and houses stretching that description – but if there’s one thing you learn in the pansexual BDSM community,  » Read more

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For my fellow poly/bi nerds…

I was doing research for a class project and found many interesting articles in online research databases, one of which I fortuitously found the author had linked to at his own web site.

Excellent article on the common social and political challenges faced by the polyamorous and bisexual communities (a lot of overlap on that Venn diagram):

The Power Dynamics of Cheating: Effects on Polyamory and Bisexuality  » Read more

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Schools of Thought

It’s been difficult finding my way lately. More knowledge has made it more difficult, rather than less — as it delineates the myriad possibilities that exist. Even within the more “learned” communities, there are a number of competing philosophies/approaches. For example: My social psych prof lectured to the class the other day how he feels he must know a text inside and out in order to teach it and that he never arrives to class with notes because if he requires notes to lecture,  » Read more

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True Grit

A few weeks have passed since my last update, but the time feels infinitely longer. Strangely, time seems to drag when I’m busy – but not in a painful way. It’s just that I’m so deeply engaged that by the end of each day I feel like 2 or 3 have passed. Weekdays anyway. It seems more and more that weekends are spent doing essentially nothing,  » Read more

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Calling

In the year leading up to this past fall, I was frustrated and beaten down by my job, by the way the transcription industry was requiring more work for less pay with each passing year, and how powerless I seemed to do anything about it. Changes in compensation, for example, had placed extreme stress on the last few years of my first marriage –  » Read more

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