What I Did When a Powerful Person Said Bad, Untrue Things About Me in Public

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It’s been a weird sea change for me the past few years, building up an online presence. It wasn’t like this at all in the past. I worked on the sidelines of publishing, mostly as an editor at some literary magazines with occasional publications in little magazines that nobody really read. Won some writing awards only a handful of people cared about (but which did help me pay my rent,  » Read more

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I’m Still Taking Birth Control After 20+ Years, But the Reason Has Changed

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For as long as I can remember, I’ve been terrified of getting pregnant.

I suppose it didn’t help that one of my formative experiences surrounding pregnancy involved a teen mom who looked miserable. She was the daughter of one of my mom’s friends. Had gotten pregnant in high school. And whenever my mother and I would stop by to visit her friend,  » Read more

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Giving Reassurance Is Like Giving Head

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Why I Don’t Vaguepost When I’m Sad

Like anyone else, I hit bad patches. I get sad. Run into trouble inside my own head.

I  had a particularly awful spell a little while back, brought on by some work I was doing sorting through childhood trauma. The kind of thing that’s always with me but is normally tucked away in tightly sealed boxes in some remote corner of my brain.  » Read more

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Bargains with God, Bargains with the Devil

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“Worrying is praying for stuff you don’t want.”

Jen Sincero

Bargains with God

When I was little, I used to make little bargains with God. Especially on long car rides. I’d ask God to introduce himself in a way that I could understand but nothing so dramatic as to blow his cover or make it so that others wouldn’t have to have faith in order to keep believing in him.  » Read more

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If You Leave a Note Before You Go Out, Will They Still Yell At You When You Get Home?

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It was something I was told a thousand times growing up. If you’re going to go out, leave a note.

By my mother when I was staying at my parents’ house. But not just her and not just there. Everywhere. At all the other places I stayed. Friends’ houses. With other relatives.  » Read more

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