“I wonder sometimes if seeing behind the curtain makes you respect me or my writing less,” I say to a friend. “You get to see what it actually looks like in practice. You get to see how I apply — or don’t — what I put out there into the wider world. How it sometimes matches exactly and other times might have to look a little different. » Read more
“When you get a chance, could you add another bottle of this to your next order?” you ask me.
It’s a bottle of white vinegar. You have the humidifier apart. It’s hanging out in the kitchen sink.
“What are you doing?” I ask.
“I’m cleaning the humidifier,” you reply. » Read more
I have always cared a lot about other people. I wasn’t a person who was afraid to pay compliments to other people or tell my friends (and later crushes) how I felt about them. Instead, I was brave. I put myself out there. Openly admired others.
For a long time, this wasn’t reciprocated — » Read more
“Hey Page,” he says, “can you take a look at something for me?”
“Sure,” I reply.
And then 8 screenshots shoot into our chat lightning quick.
“What do you think?” he says.
“Reading, sec,” I reply.
“Okay,” he says. “Take your time.”
It takes me a second to orient to the chat bubbles because it’s not a program I use. » Read more
Okay, here’s the deal. If someone wants to break up with me, I say “okay.” I accept it. I might ask why if I’m curious. But I don’t argue with them about it.
Well, here’s the way I see it. When someone decides they want to break up with me, » Read more
“Look,” I say finally, because I’m tired of worrying about it, “I’m just gonna level with you. I didn’t get you a Christmas present this year.”
You nod. Maybe you’re going to say something to me in reply.
But I’m too pent up and too impatient. Too defensive. So instead I continue. » Read more
Winter Solstice was a big day this year. The great conjunction of Jupiter and Saturn — the closest those two planetary bodies have been since 1623.
To say this doesn’t happen often is an understatement.
We moved to Texas last year. We’re both from up North — he originally from Michigan, » Read more
It’s been a hard day. A really hard one. I thought I had a handle on everything. I’ve been managing to be productive and stay healthy. But apparently I’ve been pushing down some stress — because my body starts to freak out in that way it only does when I’ve been anxious for some time but good at ignoring it consciously. » Read more
One of my big motivations for settling down once upon a time was that I really didn’t do well with rejection.
A lot of people don’t. But I was very sensitive to it. No matter how many other things went well for me, I really had a hard time with the times I was rejected. » Read more
I dated this guy once who had the weirdest habit: He’d spontaneously talk about presents he was going to get me. Aloud. In front of me.
And then time would pass, and he never would give anything to me. Not what he said, not something else.
It would happen over and over again. » Read more