mono guilt

I find myself vacillating between which will kill my relationship with Skyspook faster, which is the bigger risk: Staying monogamous with him, limiting his options, potentially choking that new fresh spark out of us once and for all with a lack of sexual variety and/or a feeling that I’m trying to control him or own his sexuality –  » Read more

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On Obscurantism

I was cruising through some old chat logs for a romantic trip down memory lane and came across myself explaining to Skyspook about my personal views on language:

 

Conversation with skyspook at 5/11/2011 on irc:

(2:50:32 PM) page: I wanted to say it without saying it
(2:50:44 PM) page: that’s how poetry is,  » Read more

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Eight ways to win my heart

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.  » Read more

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Nine things about me

I posted this meme a while back in another venue, and I liked a few of my writings well enough that I’m going to repost them here.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.  » Read more

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Playing Hard to Get

That which we obtain too easily, we esteem too lightly.

Thomas Paine

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Conversation with skyspook 10/14/2010 on irc:

(1:01:50 PM)page: in the interest of full disclosure, i think you’re really cute
(1:01:59 PM)skyspook: Aww, thank you 🙂
(1:02:01 PM)page: though I probably won’t do anything about it because I’m seeing too many people as it is
(1:02:03 PM)skyspook: As are you 🙂
(1:02:05 PM)skyspook: lol
(1:02:09 PM)skyspook: I won’t take offense 😉
(1:02:18 PM)page: I was thinking after I got to town and settled down sometime in the future,  » Read more

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Let’s Be Brave

I’ve been living in the city just over a year now after a life spent largely in small towns in Central Maine.

There are many differences between where I was and where I am now, some of them obvious. For example, Eastern Seaboard roads are quite narrow in a way that roads here in the Midwest are not.  » Read more

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Things I Do Believe

Something my therapist has been working on with me lately is examining old beliefs, basically things other people have told me that I find problematic and stressful and reframing or rejecting them as necessary. In addition, I’ve been tasked with building a belief system that suits me,  my life where it is now, where I want to go –  » Read more

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Happiness is a Warm Gun

“Holy shit!” I broke into uncontrollable cackles, after I’d fired off 2 rounds. “I get why you do this!”

I was shooting a gun for the first time, a dainty .22 pistol, at this anything goes backwoods outdoor range and had managed to decimate one of the many cans of orange soda we’d procured at the dollar store for just this purpose.  » Read more

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