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Poly Debriefing #2: More

These days I’m polyamorous in spirit, monogamous in practice. It feels disingenuous to claim that I am one or the other completely. Even though my

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sub frenzy

He sees me outlining the cartoonish bruises on my breast. I hear his laugh and became totally aware of what I’m doing. I must be

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Solid

That first bite of fried egg hit my tongue and sent my whole mouth into paroxysms of joy. Just a kiss of butter, the white

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Welcome to Fight Club

I’ve been wanting to write this essay for a while, stopped and started. Floundered. Because while I feel strongly about the following issue, I find

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Better Than a Friend

So much work has already been done, sorting out my own head, my feelings, thought patterns, behaviors. And so much lies ahead. Today, a single

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Slave Heart

May 23, 2011: I’m in the midst of an incredible romance with Skyspook. He keeps doing things for me that I like, taking me places

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Domestic Service

As I’m sweeping the floor, I find myself thinking of last night, how you grabbed my hair as I sucked you off and thrust until

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Discretion/Cowardice?

“Before you treat me, I need to make sure you’re comfortable with a few things.” “Such as?” “I’m part of the local kink community. I’m

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Loss

I am still lost. A traveler here. But I’ve recognized I have no home where I came from, no place to go back to. This

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Respect

I’ll never forget that night. November 1999, my first semester of college. I had gone to a party hosted by the music frat. I knew

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The Power of Words

1997 The day after it happens, I go to school with a headache and slivers of memory. There are pieces missing, things I can’t find

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About the Other Night

The spirit is the energy that moves between us, one to the other. When we struggle, fight, collapse together, we unearth our depths. I am

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Sincerity

I was at a backyard bonfire party many years ago when I saw a friend vigorously fellate a hot dog. I know. No big deal,

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Mono-Flexible

This is the term Skyspook came up with to describe myself with regards with monogamy/non-monogamy. I think my natural orientation is for monogamy, the simplicity.

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Weighty Matters

Dieting has been very much a part of my psyche since I first started going to Weight Watchers meetings at 3 years old. I found

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Yes, I’m the Crazy Ex

I have a bounty of exes, ex-girlfriends, ex-boyfriends, now even an ex-husband. In short, I’m a lot of people’s crazy ex. I love so hard

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I wrote a story

Yesterday I did something I haven’t done in a long time. I wrote a short story. Fiction and I haven’t been on speaking terms in

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Acceptance is Scary

“Thank you,” I gasp, collapsing beside him on the bed. He raises an eyebrow, even though his face is flooded with afterglow. “Thank you.” It

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Wish List

Our psychological and emotional positions in the sadomasochist realm firmly established, I’d broached the topic of D/s. I wanted to know where we were going.

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See You Later, Space Cowboy

Cowboy. Somebody who figures that these alternative relationships are unstable, and consciously or unconsciously tries to pull one of the partners off into a monogamous

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Us

I’ve loved you a season now. Somehow your eyes are growing softer and brighter with time and the colors around us more vibrant. This new

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Yes

Last night, you told me that prosody was my strong suit and drew a heart in black ink on my shoulder with your good pen

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sexual compass

Sexual Orientation I am attracted to people in general. I don’t have a preference when it comes to gonads. There is also a wide range

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